Things are going fine.
The World Cup and a lot of job caused several extra hours had kept me busy during these last weeks.
As I wake up very early, I arrive home really tired.
The therapist said that this happens due to my personal rhythm in these last two years.
I used to work at home, waking up late and going to bed late too.
Now, I need to adequate my rhythm to my new “life” outside home. And it will take sometime.
And I’m not patient enough to wait and so, here I am, really upset and angry because I cannot stay awake after 21h.
If I do, I wake up feeling really tired in the next morning. I feel like I’m really older. Blargh!
I’m missing a lot my friends at Forumania.
But I don’t have enough time to enter there and have fun. Today, I could just check two threads and I could see how much I miss that place.
I’m thinking about to “be there” on Sunday anyway.
About MySpace, I definitely don’t like it. But my favourite artists (Magne and Savoy) are there. It’s a good way to see what they are doing.
And there is also Adele, that is not at Forumania anymore. There are other friends that post there, but I really don’t have time to check all their blogs. I would like very much to do it. But with such few free time, I need to priorize things. And I don’t like this. I feel as I’m always neglecting someone.
I’m missing to write too. I know and I’m really proud to be a “Bard”, but I need to “use” this gift more often.
I need to leave my Awen comes and flow in words. I love to write and I’m also neglecting this to myself.
I’m not sure, but I have the feeling that things are happening and I don’t have enough time to deal with them and I fear to be loosing something.
I feel the symptoms of depression almost everyday. The feeling that nothing worths and the wish to be in my bed the whole day are really present. But, I “don’t have time” for it, so I leave the bed behind and go to work. The feeling is always there, it hurts a little bit. And I pretend it’s not there and that everything is all right.
(WAAAAAAAAH!!!! SUMMER MOVED ON ON THE RADIO!!!!!!! AMAAAAAAAZING!!!!!)
The good point is that I’m so tired when I arrive home, that I can get sleep really quickly.
So, no problems to sleep.
The winter arrived. I’m really happy with this. I like cold weather. Temperatures around 10ºC are really nice for me.
The only thing that bothers me, is this feeling inside the breast. It’s a kind of agony or so, that makes me sigh and miss something that I cannot define.
Time to go…